So today [info]fossarian and I signed up for [info]deancasbigbang under our [info]wipper_snappers alias. Anyone care to place bets on how long it'll be before we start to lose our shit? Me neither.

Anyway, this promises to be a fun challenge this year, with boatloads of super talented artists and writers on board. You should sign up, too! This is a great opportunity to get that long fic you've been thinking about done.

Click the banner to sign up

See you on the other side, peeps!
Hey y'all,

Just a quick note to confirm that I am indeed still working on When Play Turns Bitter. No real excuse for the hiatus this time except that I've been trying to concentrate on
[info]spn_j2_bigbang on account of the looming draft deadline, as well as the side projects I've been doing with [info]fossarian, but I've got ~3000 words of the new chapter hammered out so far. With any luck it'll get posted soon, so - worry not!

I said I wouldn't leave you hanging, and a promise is a promise. So... promise. /o\
Haven't done one of these in a while, partly due to being busy, but also because I haven't done much work on this. *cowers* I just finished a new chapter, however, and have finally adjusted my draft mindset from "make it perfect" to "get it done". Fingers crossed!

36600 / 20000 (183.00%)
Howdy y'all,

To celebrate our inaugural collaboration, the missus
[info]fossarian and I have created a sparkly new comm to host all of our current and future teamwork.

Do check us out at
[info]wipper_snappers and feel free to add, and pass on the word!
This made me weep, but everyone needs to watch this video. Promise you won't regret it.

Stolen from everyone and their mum:

Ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life that you're interested in/curious about - it can be anything from my favorite shirt to my workplace, my books or my home. Leave your request as a comment to this entry, I'll snap the pictures and post them.
You guyssss,

I hit 30 000 words last night on
[info]spn_j2_bigbang thanks in no small part to [info]plentyofowls, who was churning out massive amounts of Dean/Cas porn for the sake of inspiration. Hey, that shit works.

30000 / 20000 (150.00%)

I still have no idea how long it will be, or if I'll even finish, but at least it's going? I probably would have accomplished more last week had I not been confined to my bed, sick. But them's the breaks.


Mar. 3rd, 2011 05:35 pm
Just finished Chapter 3 of [info]spn_j2_bigbang - as good a landmark as any to provide a quick update. Definitely getting there!

18334 / 40000 (45.84%)
Hello again,

Just to make things even more confusing, I've decided to create a second Twitter account,
@nanoochka, to keep my fandom/personal tweets separate from the posts I made to @infohead_desk. Since I've got a fair number of RL friends on there, I'd like the two not to cross-pollinate (they don't know about my slashy ways lol). Hopefully this one is a lot more recognizable to you, so please add me back! I'm doing my best to add everyone who followed me on the other account.

Hey y'all,

I've finally given in to the pressure and created a Twitter account. I'm still figuring it out how it works, but I wanted a way to keep track of all the dumbass reference questions I get asked on a daily basis at work. There won't really be much about my writing or personal life, but hopefully it'll be good for a laugh.

So, if you're keen, follow me! I can be found
In the spirit of my [ profile] spn_j2_bigbang AU, I thought I'd share this video of the most amazing thing I've ever seen in my life. My new life plan has officially expanded to include, "Purchase a lake and build a wave garden." I'm sure "Learn to surf" is on there too, don't worry.

If you're a big geek like me, you can check out more videos at If you already happen to be in possession of a lake, I expect this to be installed immediately. I shall await my invitation in the mail.


Feb. 18th, 2011 02:28 pm
Somehow managed to finish Chapter Two of my [ profile] spn_j2_bigbang entry last night. I don't know how this happened, but I sort of expect it to backfire on me really quickly, either through my inability to finish, or by exploding the total wordcount (I doubt it'll end at 20k).

9152 / 20000 45.76% Done!

It's time.

Feb. 16th, 2011 03:47 pm

6997 / 20000 34.99% Done!

That's right. Time to be totally counterproductive as I update my [ profile] spn_j2_bigbang wordcount tracker every 2 minutes.
I'm sort of bored at work and trying not to check my phone obsessively for messages from the bestie, so let's talk about political affiliations instead. Doesn't that sound fun?

Actually, I'm just going to post the results of a quiz I found on [ profile] takadainmate's LJ, which you can do for yourself here.

It's just me and Ghandi here on the left, bb's (does that mean haters to the right?). Green is my political affiliation of choice, usually, unless there happens to be a Liberal candidate that's slightly less of a fuckwit than the others (realistically, it's only ever going to be them or the Conservatives in power, so sometimes I like to feel less like I'm voting passive-aggressively) and it's sort of satisfying to know that you've been voting for the appropriate party this whole time. Except, of course, for those times that I just spoil my vote, but I usually reserve such behaviour for municipal elections involving homophobic asshole mayors. Oh hey, Rob Ford.
I want to share a blog link I stumbled across recently about one gay man's experience in the porn industry, specifically for Sean Cody.

Now, obviously gay porn is a significant part of fandom, especially as a slash writer, and I won't deny that it's something I take a personal interest in both as a viewer and as a commentator. We all take our cues from somewhere, so it's interesting to consider, from time to time, the behind-the-scenes aspect of the gay porn industry - call it a meta approach to porn. There's no shortage of commentary out there about the straight porn industry which can cover everything from its injustices and exploitation practices, to issues about the male gaze, to how it's become a lot more mainstream in Western culture in the last decade or so. (Hell, I myself own a pair of Miu Miu's that could pass for stripper shoes any day of the week.) It seems to me like gay pornography - and here I'm talking specifically about gay male pornography, because writing "lesbian pornography" just makes me want to put quotes around the word 'lesbian', and f/f pornography for actual women is still a very emergent niche, even with the growth of the porn-for-women industry - is both a very different animal and the same old story, but there's a less discussion about it in the media, either because it just hasn't come under the same widespread scrutiny as straight porn, or because people assume that it's just the same old story. I don't know.

Either way, I've tried to cobble together a few interesting links which discuss some of the less-well-known, or less-considered aspects of gay male porn, including a blog from a former Sean Cody model about what it's like to be an actual gay man in a gay-for-pay industry.

Devon Hunter's blog: "Know Before You Go"
- Devon's experiences modeling for uber-porn director Sean Cody. It's a surprising - and funny! - read with a lot of really interesting insights into the industry and its relationship to actual gay men.

Gay 4 Pay in Prague by Iva Skoch
- Great article about the porn industry in Europe, specifically Prague. Naturally Bel Ami features heavily.

Lance Bennett bottoms for the first time - stolen from [ profile] bauble. This video is graphic and very NSFW, but is nevertheless an interesting shot of a gay-for-pay actor bottoming for the first time. It's surprisingly intense and probably a lot hotter than most edited porn I've seen, and yet it's still fascinating to watch him go from angry to mindblown as the other guy starts pushing the right, erm... buttons. The "hungry hungry hippos hole" line made me LOL, and there's a facepalm moment at the end when he asks, "Does this make me gay?" Shut up, Lance.

Arpad Miklos Conquers Pussy Victoriously
- NSFW, kinda. Gay pornstar Arpad turns the tables and goes straight-for-pay. Woman says it's the best sex she's ever had.

And finally, Jasun Mark talking about how straight actors needs to butch it up when doing gay porn. I find it really interesting that straight male actors will sometimes act more feminine when having sex with a guy, because that's what they've learned from straight porn and women in the sex industry. Actually, all of Jasun's YouTube vids are worth a watch.

ETA: I also forgot to add this article from the Daily Beast that I read a while ago: The Lesbians Who Love Male Gay Porn. It's pretty thought provoking, although one point that's raised - about how some lesbians like gay porn because they don't have to think about the politics and sexism involved in straight porn (be it m/f or f/f porn for men) - gave me pause; as much as I understood the point, I thought it wasn't fair to dismiss the politics and sexism and homophobia also inherent to the male gay porn industry, which shouldn't be undervalued in comparison to misogyny. But anyway, still a good read.

I'll be less meta tomorrow, promise.
I have to do some reccing that may seem, inadvertently, like self-reccing, but trust me, I only have eyes for [info]daggomus_prime.

Her Awesomeness and I have been in discussion about artwork for When Play Turns Bitter over the past little while, and last night the first piece got posted. The scene depicts Dean and Kurt's first meeting at the bar, and... whoa. I had to get up at 5am just to go look at it, because I was that excited, and now I just can't stop staring at it for all its awesomeness. This is the best feeling ever, because I am a) way overattached to this story and b) way overattached to my OMC, but I couldn't have translated this scene more perfectly if I were an artist myself, she just nailed it so hard.

So, gushing aside (though there'll probably be more), please go check out the artwork. And then read the fic. If you want. (XD) But mostly go look at the artwork.

(Preview image links to Dag's journal)
Whee! Stolen from everyone.

Here's where I've visited (abysmal, I know):

visited 7 states (3.11%)
Create your own visited map of The World

visited 4 states (30.7%)
Create your own visited map of Canada

visited 10 states (20%)
Create your own visited map of The United States

I need to get out more.
Just found this really interesting article on about self-publishing to the Kindle. I've heard about it before, as well as reports of the varying degrees of success associated with self-publishing by this method, but it's kind of interesting nonetheless, and great to have a step-by-step overview of how it's done if you've got a book that you're keen to get out there. Now all I have to do is finish one!

How to Publish Your Book on Amazon Kindle @
I have a funny story to share with y'all.

I run a writing group at my library for a small number of people from the community, and I have to say that so far it's been a really positive thing. I've tried to draw upon my own experiences with writing groups from when I was doing my degree in Creative Writing - although it was a bit different and we were obviously graded and guided by a professional writer, I still got a sense of what worked well as part of the group dynamic, and what to try and avoid in the future. Everyone in my group seems to get along and have really warmed up to one another; what started off as a group of fairly apprehensive people has turned into a positive, fun environment.

That is, except for Betty.

Betty is a woman in her late sixties who is known, by name, to all of the library staff here, as she can be extremely demanding and difficult to please as a customer. My stomach definitely sank when I saw her name on the sign-up sheet for the group, but I figured, Whatevs, maybe it won't be so bad, or she'll turn out to be an amazing writer. Yeah, right.

Not only does she snap and get defensive about every line of concrit provided to her at our meetings, she simply refuses to give feedback to the other group members, and makes it pretty obvious that she hates discussing anyone else's work but her own. We all know the type from fandom. Last month she said, "I have no interest in reading anyone else's work because I find it boring. Can I just skip reading it, or should i write, 'BORING' in my comments?" I politely told her that if she was unable to address herself more politely to the other group members, or fulfill group expectations, that I would have to replace her with someone else from the waiting list.

At this stage, I should also add that I regularly hand out samples of poetry and short stories from various well-known authors such as W. H. Auden, Hemingway, Shakespeare or T. S. Eliot so that the group members can think about different styles of writing, especially since some of them are still getting used to different poetic forms, etc.

Today I get a package in my mailbox from her, containing not only this month's writing sample, but all of Betty's comments on the other members' work, and the handouts I prepared. At first I couldn't figure out why she would have returned the handouts to me, but then I had a closer look and realized that she had not just discarded them, but gone and written her critiques on everything - even the Auden and the Eliot and the Hemingway. I guess Shakespeare passed muster for her.

All over the Auden poems were notes like, "This is unclear - explain what you mean," or, "Why would we stumble when the musicians are playing? This makes no sense," or, my favourite, "What are the clowns supposed to signify?" Regarding the lines from The More Loving One, "Admirer as I think I am/ Of stars that do not give a damn," she responded, "This is an undesirable emotion - your whole poem is unclear. Please clarify."

Her notes to Hemingway were definitely my favourite, though. She wrote a bunch of stuff in the margins about the title of Hemingway's A Very Short Story demanding to know what it was about, or if it indicated sexual abuse, or who the hell he was talking about (not even paraphrasing there). She accused him of using 'unnecessarily long sentences', and, regarding the deaf old man in the story A Clean, Well-Lighted Place, "What does it matter what time of day it is, or if the night is more quiet? It would be quiet any time of the day since he's deaf."

I just... in between wanting to piss myself laughing, I have no idea how I'm supposed to look this woman in the eye tonight. This is either the most blatant show of passive aggressiveness I've ever seen, or the most blatant display of utter stupidity. All I can think to say is that her notes were well-taken, but that Hemingway and Auden might have a few problems addressing her concerns due to a severe case of being dead.

Day: Consider yourself officially made.

ETA: Tonight she asked, "Who's Ernest? I don't remember meeting him at one of our sessions."
I felt like sharing some pictures of my tattoos today, probably because it's a new year and I've started thinking about what I'd like next. I can't post body shots of ALL of them, because a couple would be indecent, but I can at least post the designs of those which would otherwise require me to start removing clothing lol.

Click here if you want to see! )



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